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my body knows something i don't
my body knows something i don't
my body knows something i don't
my body knows something i don't
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Old World Vulture
04:18
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i've been picking at scraps like an old world vulture in the miocene
you've moved on, but i still read your stories
a big cat killed an antelope, now i'm picking at whats left on the bone
eyes on the back of my head
i am prey for someone else
or at least thats what ive told myself for some time
even with my strong wings
that could take me away, take me anywhere
they brought me to your doorstep
so how could i be so cold?
not to give you all of me
withholding love is getting old fast
when it is all i have to give
so i will give it all to you
pouring my heart out it flows like a river
so much life swimming through it all
vulture of the old world, its time to say goodbye
extinction can be necessary, cause everybody dies
and some things just arent needed anymore
you protected me for millions of years and i thank you
without you, i'm not sure i would've made it
now im ready to fly -- far away
far away, far away, far away, from the miocene
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Blue Hole
03:26
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creek of mountain runoff, crying
your tears rejuvenate my body
fish of different sizes swimming
mosses and lichen cling to rocks you've brought in
blue hole, what do you know that i don't?
your waters chill me to the bone, blue hole
transformed within your magic, blue hole,
natural swimming pool
you laughed so hard you cried,
carved out the mountainside
and now we relish in the cool beauty of your sighs
tree cover lets us hide, within you we reside
for the evening
blue hole, what do you know that i don't?
your waters chill me to the bone, blue hole
transformed within your magic, we swim
and talk with strangers and their dogs
blue hole, you know i'm your fool
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the practice right now is to see what i’m clinging to
what do i hold in my hand that might trip me?
grasping at the past, like a stone, it hits me
expectations of what i’ve done, lingering on me
twenty years ago, 10 years ago, one year ago
why would i act from that place so ?
who is standing where my feet are and what will we do?
grasping at the past, like a dream, it leaves me
what would i do if you were me right now?
like a beast, i’ll show you my teeth
who do is i see in my mind when i think of myself as an idol of mine?
grasping at sand, like a fool, it elludes me
when walking on air, or boots on the ground, i’m alive, i’m alive
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Die Everyday
03:30
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i have not lost the feeling, the fear of being forgotten, i’m reeling
rewinding it playin in my mind
over and over again
i’m the one with spotlight, wherever i shine it becomes bright, illuminated in my mind
over and over again
and if i die today i hope you’ll remember me, as a genius, or just as a funny guy
and in 500 years i pray i’ll be forgotten, cause nothing should last that long for humans
i would die everyday, reborn unto the next thing
if it means we will be free
over and over again
i cry, cry every day, i cry, cry everyday
feeling the pain in a new way, not running and hiding within shame, its in my face and its smiling
over and over again
theres something about being brand new
that grand view from atop the mountain
seeing the journey ahead of you
over and over again
and if i die today, i hope you’ll think of me when it rains and water collects in unexpected places
and in 500 years, everything will be different
our brand new skin will just have to wait and see
i would die everyday, reborn unto the next things
shifting and changing with the stream
i would die every minute, every second if i let go
if freedom would come to all i know
over and over again
i cry, cry everyday, i cry, cry everyday
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Turniphead
06:17
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when we started growing apart, i knew that it was time
you'd tell me about your day, but never ask me about mine
i could never stop loving you, even if i tried
so i took my leave, opted in for a hard goodbye
we would talk all night, talking about oceans and how little we studied them
you were always wondering what's going on beneath the surface
so i shared everything, with you, all my feelings
when we started growing apart, i knew that it was time
you'd tell me about your day, but never ask me about mine
i could never stop loving you, even if i tried
you come to me in my dreams, distant but fine
you said you could kiss me if you swayed more that way
not sure if you knew how you made me feel on that day
on a leash, i was running towards what could never be
i just wanted to know you and be what you needed me to be
but it got to a point where i just needed to be me
when i grew in one direction, you grew the other way
told me i wasn't being myself, that i was just wasting away
i could never stop loving you, even if i tried
so i took my leave, followed my dreams, with a hard goodbye
i was feeling i was needed, it was what i'd always known
i was needing to be needed, but i knew some folks
that didn't need a thing from me, just needed me to be myself
unapologetically, and that felt alright, then it felt pristine
i was a light in a crystal cave, shining til i found my way
to the opening, i moved away,
and started opening, and transforming the way i was relating
and i'm still working it out
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So Red
03:28
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opening myself like opening a clam
slowly, slowly no cracking
cant take a knife to it, my jaw is so tight
from all the things i cant let go
my knuckles so hard, so white
opening myself, like talking with a child
i know why you run and hide, it feels safer inside,
can’t take the joy out of it, ill be disengaged
i’ll run and fall on my knees, get scraped up
real bad
opening myself, like excavating ruins
dust away, stir gently that which weighs you down
digging and digging only gets you so far
but you hit groundwater this time,
a spring erupts, the beauty rises
so wet
revealing a ruby,
so red
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Brandy
01:56
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i've been breaking thru the soles of all my shoes
walking round town looking for you
and little did i know, you were right down the road
in the backyard with your arms crossed and your eyes closed
i've been walking up and down the stairs all day just
hoping the pain will fade away
but the pain sits there in silence and it
looks at me and it smiles and it's june
and i can't help but think of you
i've been waking up before the clocks go off
waking up and checkin all the locks
cause i hear your cries, see your demise
and i'm wondering if you'll come home, knocking at the door
but you never do
and i think of my last words to you
and i can't recall them
so without further ado, i'll say thank you for doing what you do
i know you're out being someone new, so i'll see you soon
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Life & Death
06:21
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i may not remember you save photos and stories
from a time, when you held pain i couldn’t comprehend
i try to place blame like a piece that won’t fit
i tried cracking codes, when i could’ve been compassionate
regret and revenge, best friends, with daggers behind their backs
they are so human, its hilarious
they’ll kill eachother given the chance, so this time i’ll turn my head
and i let them die, i let them die
life and death and other things
that make no sense in these bodies
i know, i know, i know
it’ll make sense someday
life and death and other things
that make no sense in these bodies
i know, i know, i know,
it’ll make sense someday
when i look into kitren’s eyes, i see your essence left behind in
all things, glowing so bright
you havent really left at all, just changed your shape
when i’m feeling small, i'll curl up into you
you’d run and hide, you’d come to be by my side
gentle creature, tiny feline
the way you left us still plays back in my mind
with my hands on my solar plexus on cold, quiet nights
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Vow to the Sun
05:06
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I would take you to a place, quiet and gentle
With branches overhead, holding, quiet and gentle
I would take you in my arms, open and loyal
On a seat made of moss, quiet and royal
You would point out the fauna, I would point at the flora
A world for the loving, for the loving, a world
I would play past the sun set, laughing and crying
Wholly with you, laughing and crying
I would hold you in my hand, simple and true
Listen without thought, listen without thought
I would love you through dying
Death, it would be trying, yet hardly an obstacle
My love keeps growing
For love is unending, it has no beginning
Like breath living within you
Like breath living within you
Can you recall where you were before?
Can you recall where you were before?
There's no need when I'm with you
When I'm with you
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did you know that you did it?
all those things you said you wanted to do?
did you know that you did it?
traversed the land, found buried treasure
and you’re finding it right now
when you’re wandering around
when you’re wandering around
you did it, kid
oooh kid, you did it
and i’ll always be here
we’ll get there together
and make every day into heaven
it lives all around you
are you feeling it?
the way that i’m feeling it?
did you know that you did it?
kid, you did it
and i'll always be here
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i'm breaking down, all my furs fallen out
alone on the side of the road
cars pass me, and what do they know?
rain melting my skin away, my bones exposed
the torture was never my own, for the toad shares in it
the crows are circling, circling, circling
suffering was never my own for the toad shares in it
the crows share in it, circling
cycling
the worms share in it, the worms are cycling, cycling, cycling
the toads share in it, the crows are sharing
circling, circling, circling
i was reborn a child
surrounded by cats in the cradle
gazing with curiosity out the window
i took an axe, i cut thru the rubber
that kept me from cycling, circling
circling, cycling, cycling, circling
pink candle flickering, i mourn over nothing,
i mourn
the crows are circling, cycling, circling, curtseying
the worms share in it, the toad shares in it
i know
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